My daughter's daycare teacher leaves tomorrow. I'm sad to see her go. She has taught my baby girl to write and read her name, she has taught her sign language, basically she has prepared her for kindergarten and I don't know how to thank her properly. I bought her a Christian book for women and a CD by Nicole Nordeman as grititude. She also introduced me to a church that has helped me in some ways. She helped to not only build my daughter's intellect, but she strengthened my faith as well!
I will miss her when she leaves!

Am I satisfied with my life at this moment? No. I am a good person with two loving children. I'm engaged to be married to their father. I'm making $45,000 a year. I live in a nice home and drive a nice car. And I am not happy with this. It's not what I want. I love the home, the family, the car...but not the career path. I make too much money now and when I look for work that I would ENJOY doing, I can't take that job, because the money is too little. I am accustomed to living a certain way, which is not very lavish, just kind of settled in my ways...and I can't take much of a paycut. Two kids in daycare and the cost is $1500 a month. So obviously I need to make good money.

Lately, I feel God calling me. Like He is trying to get my attention. I've been listening, tuning in and out, for about a year, and still, I don't know what He is trying to tell me. It's frustrating. I don't know where I'm supposed to be. I don't get the feeling that He is trying to tell me that I'm fine where I am...

Day 1
Now Playing: Nichole Nordeman's What If
Today I start my journal of truth.